Tuesday, May 18, 2010

self portrait tuesday



it is terrifying to be a mother.

when you have a child, you open yourself up to a whole new world of anxiety. you worry over a newborn: is he eating enough? is he sleeping too much? is he breathing, for goodness sake.

and then you have a toddler and you worry about marbles and electrical outlets and separation anxiety. should we watch the news in front of him? where the heck did he find those scissors?!?

and the first day you leave him with a sitter. or a grandparent. or a teacher. those first hours when you obsess over how many things will go wrong, how many poisons he will swallow, how many times he will slam his fingers in the door, how many times he will slam someone else's fingers in the door...

the terrifying bike rides when he swerves too close to a car, the cannonballs that land too close to the pool deck, the stitches, the casts, the nightmares. these are all too soon followed by the learner's permit, the unchaperoned outings, the minutes that tick down incessantly to that first missed curfew.

and then, there are the werewolves...

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at first, you hear the stories, snippets of gossip in the drop-off lane at the elementary school. a family pet dead. a child missing. they are horror stories, of course, but told in the comfort of morning light, the sun's rays blur the vivid detail with which the tales are spun. by the time you've finished your morning's errands, grabbed another cup of coffee or put in a few hours at work, you've all but forgotten the chill that raised the hairs on your neck.

but your child has heard the stories, too, in their elementary school epic-ness, twisted and embellished until even the teachers cry, "enough! let's get back to long division."

and now it is dark. and your child is restless. the night sounds that used to be familiar are now echoing throughout the house, un-named. unknown. you touch the locks again, secure your safety as you peer out into the inky calm. they are out there, somewhere. these predators. these werewolves...

it is terrifying to be a mother.

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i know i told you things were a bit topsy turvy right now. but i assure you, i have not gone completely mad (well, that's debatable...) (some of you readers can just hush now...)anyhoo, i'm sure you've noticed this is no ordinary spt.

i don't know much about werewolves, and neither does my 9 year old son. yet. (well, there was that one episode of Wizards of Waverly Place recently...)

but Christine Johnson knows a lot about them. and today is the day that her first novel, Claire de Lune, is available for purchase! you can check out the prologue and the first chapter right here.

i've been invited to participate in the first ever Non "Book Blog" Tour and i'm thrilled to be in the company of some other fantastic bloggers who are helping to get the good word out for Christine! click on over and see how werewolves are popping up all over the blogosphere today!! (thanks for the invite, katie!)

[and, i'd like to add, if you are visiting amuse-bouche for the first time, please read on to learn a little bit more about this blog. and, by all means, feel free to jump into spt along with the rest of us!!]

10 comments:

crystal said...

Lelly! You look so werewolfy in that photo! (in a cute way)

I'll have to see what I can dream up for a werewolf spt. hmmmm....

Katie said...

Yeaaaaahhh, I'm so NOT ready to be a mother, LOL! :)

Thank you for playing today!

donna said...

this is a hard one!!!

Christine Johnson Books said...

That is one wolfy portrait! Thank you so much for the great post - I really appreciate it!

Jill said...

I'm unclear if I'm supposed to go werewolfish or terrified motherish...the 2nd choice would be easy for me to do.

Alisa said...

I have the terrified mother down pat tonight.
I could not agree with you more!
I am interested in the book- I was just thinking of the song with the same title tonight.

jenn said...

I had fun following the links to figure out what I needed to do to participate today- what a fun thing to be part of!

I hope I did my part- though not as clever as yours. And I have to say real or not (the werewolves), there are so many terrifying things out there when you're the mother!

Keep breathing until topsy turvey settles back down!

偉軍 said...

All roads lead to Rome. 堅持自己所選!.............................................

Amie said...

I think I totally misread this the first time... I guess I am not smart enough to decipher the directions. I did terrifying to be a mother... make next week I will get it right.

michelle said...

Oh, it is terrifying to be a mother. I was watching Masterpiece's Emma tonight, and Emma's father tells her that you never know true fear until you have a child.