i put this challenge out there to challenge me. i know $100 didn't seem like a lot of mad money, but if i had given myself $1000 (or more!) i would have never completed the challenge. so, off i went to my closet with 'benjamin' in my hand...
i know, WHERE to begin?!? the state of my closet simply reflects the way i feel about clothes, i'm sad to say. i have been overweight my entire life, and this has effectively put up a barrier between me and, let's say, clothes in general. except for a few years in my twenties, i have always been uncomfortable about fashion. i can't put on anything without first determining how it will look from behind! i'll tell you, sometimes even black can't camouflage unflattering lines!
i am that classic apple shape. you know, the one that prevents you from wearing shirts tucked in (much less something that might be described as "cinched.") ladies tee shirts (they used to be called 'baby doll?')... they fit lovely through the shoulders, but then i have to deal with the dreaded 'muffin top!' spaghetti strap shirts... they don't make those cute "see-through strap" bras in my size!!
call me clothes shy, but for years, i have resorted to combing the clearance racks at target & cato. (something about shopping clearance racks - i don't feel the need to try anything on! i mean, if it doesn't fit right, at least i only spent $8.00 on it!! am i right??) shopping at stores like these, you don't really have to worry about FASHION. you're simply there to get clothed. (despite what i learned in "the devil wears prada," i will NEVER make a connection between my XL boatneck shell with lycra and last year's breakthrough designer at New York's fashion week!!)
therefore, i am left with a closet full of stuff. my clothes are old, outdated. they are shabby (and not in a "chic" way!) i'm losing weight, and i'm in that awkward in-between stage where i'm not quite ready to replace items. so, what WOULD i spend my $100 on?!?
yup. jeans! i want, just once, to own a pair of jeans that i LOVE. i want to be able to walk into the Gap (the Gap is still open, right?) or Old Navy, pick something off of the rack, and have it fit me in all the right places! i don't want anything low-rise, and i don't think i want anything with a flare leg. i definitely don't want anything with lycra in it! (who the hell decided that putting lycra in denim was a good idea? that's, like, giving perpetual dieters like me a reason to just give in to the battle of the bulge! if they keep putting lycra in denim, i can just keep getting fatter and fatter, and i will ALWAYS be able to fit into a size 16!!)
my jeans would be made for tall women (i am a tall woman! can't stand when my ankles peek out). they would be naturally faded, no acid wash or machine-distressed for me! the waist would reside comfortably just below my belly button (no plumber's crack!) they would flatter my hips and fit properly around my thighs (not too tight! not too loose, either!)
and most importantly, they would ALWAYS fit me perfectly. my own pants that will travel with me through the highs and lows (literally) of my life!